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Review Miss Me Not by Tiffany King


They had a pact. 
Leave the world behind much as they had lived it.
No one would miss them. No harm, no foul.
Their personal demons would be left behind once and for all. 
It was the only thing they could count on. 
It was all she had.

Madison Hanson has spent the last four years being a “shadow.” Her parents ignore her. The students at her school stopped talking to her years ago, and the majority of her teachers forget she’s even there. In her desperate yearning to leave her invisible life behind, Madison makes a pact with her only friend, James Garrison, to end their lives as inconspicuously as they live them. No fuss, no muss. No one would miss her and she would miss no one. Their plan is set, and it’s all she can count on. That is, until fellow student, Mitch Peterson, beats them to the punch. Everything Madison believed in is shaken to the core when she watches the aftermath of Mitch’s death unfold. By taking his own life, Mitch unwittingly saves hers. What a selfish prick. 

She is now left with the daunting task of living. Trying to bury her demons once and for all, and finally trusting someone with her fragile existence. 

Living is hell.
Death would have been so much easier.

Genre: YA Fiction
Publisher: Indie
Release Date: November 23, 2012
Page Count: 316
Source: My copy.
Rating: 4/5

I ran to my Nook on release day to pick up this novel because I have heard so much about this author and suicide/depression/mental illness is so very close to my heart. Teen suicide is no easy subject to breach, and I was very interested to see King’s take on it.

It started out with this very unlikable character, Madison. But that was the point, really. She was a very angry person who just wanted to die. I would have liked more background on her’s and James’ pact, like how they came to the decision and more of their friendship pre-pact, but it was okay. For me, her inner monologue was too obvious – the author seemed to always want to point out when Madison was to have a serious thought, which felt very unnatural to me. But her desires were believable.

And then Mitch, a classmate, committed suicide, which ruined their plans. Like I said, Madison was very unlikable. King did a very good job at portraying her anger for the reader. She was an angry girl who was just seething inside. Nothing and no one could change her mind about herself, about her world. She has had her ways of coping up to this point, but obviously, those coping mechanisms aren’t working out. Enter Dean.

Dean is a genuinely good guy. He lost his friend to suicide and wants to help Madison. I enjoyed reading about Dean and his perfect family. And not perfect in a bad way either – they were all very compassionate. The way they acted, their connections with each other, were not relatable (for me) – my family isn’t really like that – but they were very believable. I believed that there could be a family out there that exists just like Dean’s family.

By the end, I thought Madison’s character and her relationship with Dean were developed well. He was quite the teenage savior and protector towards Madison. I thought their kiss was very awkward and some of their dialogue was sort of corny – I didn’t always feel the romance or the steam that Madison described – but the characters were written so well that I overlooked it. I definitely have my reservations about this novel, but the author made up for any gripes I may have with the ending. I thought the Epilogue was beautifully done and couldn’t have asked for a better closing.

All in all, I think it’s an important novel and enjoyed King’s writing. I’d definitely read more of her work.


Hi, I’m Lu, and first review, It’s Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini

Hello. Welcome to lookingforseattle. I’m Lu, a first time book blogger, so hopefully I’m doing this right. Um… here’s a review. : )

Like many ambitious New York City teenagers, Craig Gilner sees entry into Manhattan’s Executive Pre-Professional High School as the ticket to his future. Determined to succeed at life–which means getting into the right high school to get into the right college to get the right job–Craig studies night and day to ace the entrance exam, and does. That’s when things start to get crazy.
At his new school, Craig realizes that he isn’t brilliant compared to the other kids; he’s just average, and maybe not even that. He soon sees his once-perfect future crumbling away. The stress becomes unbearable and Craig stops eating and sleeping–until, one night, he nearly kills himself.
Craig’s suicidal episode gets him checked into a mental hospital, where his new neighbors include a transsexual sex addict, a girl who has scarred her own face with scissors, and the self-elected President Armelio. There, isolated from the crushing pressures of school and friends, Craig is finally able to confront the sources of his anxiety.
Ned Vizzini, who himself spent time in a psychiatric hospital, has created a remarkably moving tale about the sometimes unexpected road to happiness. For a novel about depression, it’s definitely a funny story.

I know, the whole “don’t judge a book by its movie” thing, but there are some things I have to mention.

I just have to say that I’m glad I didn’t stick to my personal rule of always reading the book before I see the movie on this one. I really liked the movie but I think if I had read the book first I would have hated it.

For example, the whole stress vomiting thing was very strange. And as I was reading the book I was hoping that was just a Craig-quirk that was added for the movie. It didn’t end up that way, Craig did have a vomiting problem that was related to his depression, but it wasn’t like someone said something to him that stressed him out and he would just vomit, like the movie portrayed. It went much deeper than that, and was understandable and relatable the way the author described it.

Contrastingly, I loved Bobby in the movie, but he was completely out of character in the movie compared to the book.

There are other things I could mention about the book versus the movie, but these were the important ones.

I know that Ned Vizzini spent some time in a mental hospital, and based on the time frame in which he wrote the book between the time he was admitted, it’s clear that his experience heavily influenced his story. It’s possible that the hospital he spent time at was one of those ritzy ones that you spend the big bucks to stay at, but the way he described it in the book, was that it was the psychiatric ward at your everyday hospital. In that case, the world building and character relationships were very unrealistic. These hospitals do not have art “classes” or music volunteers – there is hardly a place for the patients to convene – and your first days are not as friendly and sociable. A stay at the psychiatric ward of a community hospital is very daunting and scary, and I don’t know that the author portrayed this as well as he could.

Craig was a very likeable kid, developed well as a character, a teenager who was obviously raised well by his parents. I think he was lost in his life, with nowhere to turn (that he knew of), and his best friend and supposed crush didn’t help. Aaron was basically an asshole and Nia a complete bitch. They deserved each other.

By the end, I think his new friends and girlfriend helped lead him to destiny, and, ultimately, to happiness. It was a good enough book that I think teens and adults suffering (or knowing someone) from depression can relate to and get something important out of.